getting loss

Recently,

I get loss our communication, always complain and argue with very stupid things.
I don't know how to deal with this issue between yours and my family.
I really want to run away form this Black Hole. I can't breathe, I want my wings back and take me out of this cycle nightmare.

I know, if I stay at home for a while, I will go back to the wall, my deeply in side blue gray wall, I will become cynical everything and very picky for everything. That is really bad situation. I get loss my temper.

I need to find the way to get out this problem.